Yesterday I got a root canal. yeouch. i have some pain meds and antibiotics now.
I'm posting the chronicles of packing my studio on my other blog studiojcards.
I will also be packing other parts of the house, but that room is a story of it's own!
feel free to follow along if you like!
Friday, February 27, 2009
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Pain...
I'm stuck.
I'm uninspired and in varying pains.
My neck/left shoulder is starting to bother me more, I pause and think back to the similar experience with pain S had in 2006. I am scared and too far away from the doctor he entrusted his spinal cord with. The effects of the epidural injection in which he gave me in August ( 6 months ago) have warn off completely. I started to feel them wear off slowly over the last few months.
I had been babying that left side from use while I was still dealing craps, then I screwed up my thumb/wrist on the right side with this tendonitis and had to start using the left 100% as I had my right in a variety of splints, wraps and bandages.
Now I am not dealing craps now and gingerly using both sides, while on my light duty assignment of simply counting money, in both paper and poker chip format. But sometimes, like just a while ago, I sat in my recliner reading hubby's manuscript and I felt with both hands, it was difficult and strenuous to even hold 20 pieces of paper in my hands upright.
I had started seeing an acupuncturist, Dr. Emily as she calls herself, twice now, on a weekly basis, and once more tomorrow. The 1st visit I swear i felt different durring and after. I was only being treated for the tendonitis in my right thumb joint at the wrist. I felt a warming tingling all through that thumb and she said it was a good reaction. Something about the energy flow. I do not have a lot of knowledge on the practice of acupuncture, I had referals and recomendations from friends. When I returned for a 2nd appointment she put needles in other places as well as that thumb wrist area. I had initially explained to her of my bulging disk and pinched nerve there-from. So I think the 2nd round, with a few needles in my neck, she hoped to treat that pain also. But the little wooden platform beds you must lay on whilst adorning needles, which have only maybe a 2" flimsy padding on them, was not enough, I got antsy, uncomfortable and squirmed and a needle fell off. It was one of which she had put in the side of my neck. I do not know if there are other laying postures this procedure, but i will ask with great hopes to hear there are. BUT... ever-since the last treatment last wednesday I feel my neck, shoulder and connected pains are worstening. Coincidence? Possibly. I will bring it up with her also on my next visit.
Last night, S's 1st night back from his vegas trip, I could not get to sleep, I could not find a possition for by neck and head to rest in that did not feel like someone was sinching a knot in my neck or stabbing it with a letter opener.
I do not think the holistic ancient chinese medicine is going to help a bulging disk. As much as I had wanted to avoid invasive treatments, narcotic cocktails and possible convolescence I feel it coming inevitable. I now think I want it- Vicodin, and all! Please put me into a drugged pain-free stupor!
Couple all that with how miserable I am here in this sleepy brown city and the cold winter days, I am, to my own dismay, finding my self fall back into that terrible disease they call depression, which started upon me once before, amost one year ago.
I need to go back to Vegas to be operated on, and I need to find a way to stay there as I am afraid of what will come of me if i stay here.
I'm uninspired and in varying pains.
My neck/left shoulder is starting to bother me more, I pause and think back to the similar experience with pain S had in 2006. I am scared and too far away from the doctor he entrusted his spinal cord with. The effects of the epidural injection in which he gave me in August ( 6 months ago) have warn off completely. I started to feel them wear off slowly over the last few months.
I had been babying that left side from use while I was still dealing craps, then I screwed up my thumb/wrist on the right side with this tendonitis and had to start using the left 100% as I had my right in a variety of splints, wraps and bandages.
Now I am not dealing craps now and gingerly using both sides, while on my light duty assignment of simply counting money, in both paper and poker chip format. But sometimes, like just a while ago, I sat in my recliner reading hubby's manuscript and I felt with both hands, it was difficult and strenuous to even hold 20 pieces of paper in my hands upright.
I had started seeing an acupuncturist, Dr. Emily as she calls herself, twice now, on a weekly basis, and once more tomorrow. The 1st visit I swear i felt different durring and after. I was only being treated for the tendonitis in my right thumb joint at the wrist. I felt a warming tingling all through that thumb and she said it was a good reaction. Something about the energy flow. I do not have a lot of knowledge on the practice of acupuncture, I had referals and recomendations from friends. When I returned for a 2nd appointment she put needles in other places as well as that thumb wrist area. I had initially explained to her of my bulging disk and pinched nerve there-from. So I think the 2nd round, with a few needles in my neck, she hoped to treat that pain also. But the little wooden platform beds you must lay on whilst adorning needles, which have only maybe a 2" flimsy padding on them, was not enough, I got antsy, uncomfortable and squirmed and a needle fell off. It was one of which she had put in the side of my neck. I do not know if there are other laying postures this procedure, but i will ask with great hopes to hear there are. BUT... ever-since the last treatment last wednesday I feel my neck, shoulder and connected pains are worstening. Coincidence? Possibly. I will bring it up with her also on my next visit.
- neck pain worstening
- unconfortable platforms
Last night, S's 1st night back from his vegas trip, I could not get to sleep, I could not find a possition for by neck and head to rest in that did not feel like someone was sinching a knot in my neck or stabbing it with a letter opener.
I do not think the holistic ancient chinese medicine is going to help a bulging disk. As much as I had wanted to avoid invasive treatments, narcotic cocktails and possible convolescence I feel it coming inevitable. I now think I want it- Vicodin, and all! Please put me into a drugged pain-free stupor!
Couple all that with how miserable I am here in this sleepy brown city and the cold winter days, I am, to my own dismay, finding my self fall back into that terrible disease they call depression, which started upon me once before, amost one year ago.
I need to go back to Vegas to be operated on, and I need to find a way to stay there as I am afraid of what will come of me if i stay here.
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